I want you more than I want to

I want you more than I want to
I like you more than I’d like to

But you would never know because I’m too petrified to tell the truth.

Friendships turned relationships have a stigma of ending roughly
And I keep my composure around you so my ego keeps security
If I exposed myself and you denied me the possibility
I could never revert myself to what we used to be
I’m a woman of minimal sensitivity but that would take a toll on me
With confidence shot I would be distraught and delay any further speech
With communication bound, there would be no reason to speak
Your feelings of guilt behind your unmatched feelings
And if you engaged in conversation you would probably be reeling
Pulling your teeth to keep this friendship sturdy
But it died when I crossed the line
Burnt the bridge halfway through and fell into mime
Blank stares with hand gestures waving “hello” and “goodbye”
The depth of our waters turn shallow in this time
You slowly forget me and move on enjoying life
I stumble across your kind from time to time
Reassurance from my memory that the risk may secede the ties
Struggle imagining the progression while the fear of reality fails to subside because…

I want you more than I want to
I like you more than I’d like to

But you would never know because I’m too petrified to tell the truth.